Sweet Heart, I went to Vegas


Life was never so drab and dull. I am not complaining ‘Honey’. Chicago is treating me well enough; it’s just that morning seems so morning like and nights are more like preludes to the same morning. Noon passes by the same old rectangular swimming pool and among these stupid mothers trying to drown their infants. Last month I perceived a dream of losing my memory for ever. I dreamt that I couldn’t recognize you. I had a cold and blank expression on my face and was watching “saas bhi kabhi bahu thi”. Oh! How shocked I was when I found my self submerged in a pool of my own sweat.

The very next day I decided that I need a break from this vicious circle of so called routine. All I wanted was to get close to you. My heart wanted to see you every where so I planned a vacation. My stupid romantic notion and nostalgia forced me to choose Vegas. I thought, I planned and when I opened my eyes group of seven was ready to accompany me. Yes my beloved, I should have come alone but after all I am a silly Indian girl. Visiting Vegas and not beholding the grandeur of Grand Canyon would have been foolish, so Grand Canyon was very much in our plan.

Now I am seated on a very uncomfortable seat of ‘Southwest flight’; unable to control my excitement and perpetual smile. At last I am out of my cocoon, ready to shed all my inhibitions. I am all set to embrace you my life, I am coming.

So this is “The Las Vegas”, my first quote after I landed. Here comes my second quote “Some one help me tear all my clothes, it’s hot in here”. I know that is an outrageous comment but I really didn’t mean it sweet heart, you know that I am all yours. So, where was I? Yes my dream of riding a Limousine from the airport to my hotel and shouting my heart out “Hey people here I am, welcome me because I am Ananya”, the dream vanquished. Why, because your girl is financially invalid Honey.

Don’t call it ‘The Sin city’; call it ‘The City of Light’. I cursed the city in hush tone, all because I am jealous to see such an extravagance, where my country is coping up with a legacy of its own, yes “Load shedding”. Any ways, why am I talking about some country related problems, I am here to enjoy, isn’t it? So, I was dying to check in. I could not stand a single second in this boiling shit. You know what I was ecstatic to find a cricket like creature in our suite and then we came to know we were given a suite for Invalids. Past midnight we got our deserved suite on the 20th floor with a grand view of this burning hell, sorry I mean Vegas. Goodnight my beloved I will find you tomorrow. I won’t waste a moment to be in your arms.

Lo! All I can see people with high libido, extreme desire to gamble their happiness, taste for latest fashion that is minimal clothing and tall pots of cocktails and beer. Why everybody is so happy, rejoicing and dazzled? I found Vegas luring, seductive, pompous and artificial but I was awestruck to see a very beautifully carved city in midst of barren hills. -- As you know no sin city can distract me or trick me. I didn’t lose my focus, I will find you darling.

The razzmatazz of gambling and sex gave me a giddy feel. I was pleading my folks to drive me to Grand Canyon ASAP. After 3 hours of drive I was there “The Grand Canyon” sitting grandly moaning my name and seducing me.

I don’t know about orgasm, never had one rather I found the charmer “Tom Cruise” incapable of providing me one. Would you believe me if I say today here in land of grand dunes and gorges I had one, an orgasm honey. If shuddering with ecstasy, eyes’ shutting down in influence of opium like dizziness, if a sudden churning sound comes out of your bloated stomach, if the Goosebumps never mellow downs, if your eyes gets moistened from an unknown pain, if you feel like galloping from one gorge to another, if sudden rush of tremor occurs some where left of your bosom, if you decide to die then and there and when your soul is grown to touch the end of the horizon, I call that an big ‘O’.

I lived died and lived again. I found myself safe, cozy and proud in your arms. I took your name several times inside me and I could hear the echo from each and every hidden space of that vast madness. Yes you were there. A whiff of mist touched my bosom gently… Don’t save me sweet heart, I am coming.