Yester Blues

As if it was yesterday when I was sheepishly eyeing you surrounded by a swarm, and looked away every time you glanced at me. You were my dear friend with whom I shared god knows how many sitcoms and action movie and never faltered to mock you every time you tripped or mispronounced a word. Things were certainly pleasant then, when you were a friend. What on earth happened, and the dynamics of our relationship changed? Who knew that a time had come when mere mention of your name, painted my cheeks apple red or your one look caused numbness in me and melt my tissues and cells?
I was well off with one sided feelings, although was baffled by the change of emotions. I tried to coax me by blaming PMS, unemployment, sex starvation, absconding father and pretty deprived childhood; but my disillusion never matched these parameters, as it was beyond any logic or definition. I analyzed to the core and decided that I need a friend in you, as this is the way it should have been. The Holy Father above didn’t agree with my arrangements as I was truly undoing the fate, he fixed for me. 
As if it was some nano seconds before that I had my eyes close and lips sewn to yours. I fought my destiny by tearing myself apart from your arms, and proceed to the door but my hands on the door knob froze, when you touched them. You drew me closer and buried my head in your chest assuring to never let me go. I shivered in your warmth as fear of losing you crept in and your lips hushed mine telling me, you are for real.
Few light years away, I stand with an empty hand and your face is nothing but a blur. Now, when I touch my bald patch I don’t remember your fingers detangling my hair, nor I remember you teasing on my third slice of pizza while I pop in an antacid. A blur is a blur it has no face value like the mighty zero, and I am afraid I have forgotten the dimple on your right cheek. I do not get startled when I hear mom calling their kids who share their names with you. How outrageous and ridiculous it may sound but I don’t make a wish for your well being every time a lash lands on my palm. 
As if it was an era back, that we were born in two different place and lived for 20 odd years, without any scarce idea of a heartbreak we would suffer from and will suspend in that void perpetually. Yes it was yesterday when you said hello and the ghost from the past came dashing to haunt me once again.